Tuesday, November 20, 2012

I'm Thankful for being a MoM!

"God touched our hearts so deep inside our special blessing multiplied"
Being a mother has been a true gift, it is truly a labor of pure unconditional love and I've been truly double blessed with being a "MoM" (mom of multiples).  With Thanksgiving just around the corner I've been thinking of all reasons I feel blessed for being a MoM ..and here they go....
 
Really?? Who doesn't L.O.V.E a "TWO 4 ONE" deal!
    I must admit I've always LOVED a bargain and what better bargain than a buy one and get one deal.. I know I know having two babies is nothing compared to have buying shoes, but really I was pregnant ONE time and got TWO kids! Even though I felt I was pregnant for what seemed to be an eternity [no really it was forever, I found out I was pregnant SUPER early] I always TRIED to stay focused on the end prize.. My friends would keep my spirits up and I'd constantly remind myself "YOU'RE HAVING TWO, YOU'RE HAVING TWO"....in the end all the sleepless nights, numbing hands, swollen feet WERE TOTALLY WORTH IT!!!
 
Kill two birds with one stone...
    I'm already enduring all the woes of parenting a newborn oooops TWO newborns [and I'm well aware there will be more to come] but at least we only go through this ONE time! I truly admire mothers of singletons that have more than one child... I mean they go through all those hurdles MULTIPLE times- it a miracle they even want MORE children! MoM on the other hand we only have to go through all this once and once we're done it's done (unless we decide to have more children)... Sleepless nights (ONCE), potty training (ONCE) who wouldn't want that deal!?
 
Local Celebrity. Who Me?
    Having the girls has done wonder for my self-esteem! Everyday that I see how healthy and happy they are [for the most part] I feel like a "CHAMP" and then I go out with them and people are in AWWWW by them.. I must admit I get the dose of inquisitive questions [sometimes I wish I had a pre printed card with all the answers] - are they your firsts? Are you having more? How do you do it? Are you always exhausted? How far did you carry?  is having twins hard?  ohh and the question that takes the cake is "are they spontaneous or did you undergo treatment"??   But on the other hand people praise me about how big and healthy they look and "having one is hard, I can't imagine having two".. It's comments like that when I'm feeling overwhelmed and tired boost me up and help my ego just a tad! (FYI: The answers to these questions will be at the end)
 
It's always better when we're together....
    Having grown up the youngest of 4 [WAY YOUNGER], my siblings were so much older that I had to rely on cousins and friends to play with.. However, there was always great comfort in knowing that I had siblings and I always knew I wanted more than 1 baby... Now with twins that comfort is so much greater... Knowing my girls will ALWAYS have each other makes me so happy.. Right now [at 3 months] it's not as evident (eventhough they sometimes hold hands in their sleep and my heart melts each time) but I'm sure that as soon as they start becoming more aware of their surrounding they are just going to have the most fun ever... I can't wait for all the fun memories!
 
Double your pleasure, double your fun!
    Who doesn't love DOUBLE KISSES, DOUBLE HUGS, AND DOUBLE LOVE! Since day 1 I always felt slightly guilty giving one twin more attention than the other one...So my resolution for that was giving them both attention at the same time... I try as much as possible to hold them together and love on them together... My mommy powers have truly come out to shine and I have strength I never knew I had [you try carrying two fussy cranky babies at the same time at 3am!] but I do it with a huge smile on my face!
 
They are the same BUT different!!!
    I absolutely LOVE seeing how different the girls are ALREADY! Even at 3 months I can already see little personalities traits in each of them and it's a delight! I'll admit I sometimes STILL get them confused [I don't feel bad after reading other MoM posts about how this happens to them too] because they look so much alike but then their little diva personalities shine and I immediately know who's who!
 
Discount double check!
    It wasn't until yesterday that a co-worker (also a MoM) told me if I was reaping the benefits of having twins.?? I was like WHAAAT??? Apparently, being a MoM there are a few minor things I can do to get TONS of additional coupons, discounts at department stores and even things for FREE!! We've obviously incurred more costs than savings with the girls so any little bit helps... and again who doesn't love a bargain..!
 
I know that with the years this list will only get longer and longer.. I just can't wait!! I thank god at every opportunity for giving me the strength and endurance to bring two beautiful healthy little girls into this world and I also pray that he gives me health to enjoy them for MANY MANY MANY YEARS TO COME!


Answers to all the Questions I get asked.. 
In case anyone was wondering!

Are they your firsts?  
Well technically they are my first and my second!

Are you having more? 
Not sure, can I get over having these two and I'll get back to you...


How do you do it? 
How do I do what? Take care of my kids? Just like anyone else does... 
                With a lot of love, patience and help!
 I mean how do moms of singletons do it??

Are you always exhausted? 
The beginning is the WORST! 
But then you kind of get used to it and when they don't
wake up anymore you're a little thrown off by it! 

How far did you carry?  
36 LONG WEEKS and 1 day!

Is having twins hard?
I don't have anything else to compare it to so I wouldn't know other wise.
I think moms of singletons have it hard too, everyone goes through being a first time mom what difference is it whether you have one baby or two???

Were they "spontaneous" or did you have treatment?
My twins were very spontaneous.. I'm not sure who in their sane mind would 
deliberately want to get pregnant with TWINS..They run in my family! 
I'm lucky they weren't triplets!

 

Friday, November 16, 2012

Friday Confessions

Earlier this week my co-worker asked me for a favor via email. I didn't feel like doing it so I deleted the email and told her I never got it! oops!

I love my parents and I'm SUPER SUPER GRATEFUL that they are here helping me with the girls. But sometimes I secretly wish they would just go home already! [daughter of the year right here people]

I randomly envision punching my boss in the face when she wears the most ATROSHISH outfits! God get some girlfriends that will be honest with you...

I haven't grocery shopped in over 2 weeks... We're depleting our pantry and our frozen food... oh well!

I play Halo! I can kill people and not go to jail.. It's thetherapeutic people!


I secretly miss being pregnant sometimes.. 

Getting pregnant scares me to death...

When I'm at work I sometimes go to the "bathroom" to really text or be on my iphone for 5 minutes...

I told my husband I would change my last name when our marriage licensed arrived... We've been married since August 2010- [he' still waiting for it]


Friday, November 9, 2012

Friday Confessional

The Juice is Worth the Squeeze 

I returned "my breast friend" after using it for 2 months! 

I also returned a diaper bag that was a "donation" and got a store credit! That thing was $150 PEOPLE!!!

I've never had a girls scout cookies... Now I know why.. They are nothing to write home about...

People [more specifically my boss] that "baby" talk make me cringe! I just want to punch them in the FACE and yell "YOU'RE ALMOST 40 STOP TALKING LIKE A BABY"

I took 1 hour to vote even though I had already absentee voted  [i really pissed people off with this one]

I've used company stamps for my "personal" use

I've never baked cookies-EVER!

I suggested an "inter office messenger" and explained that it would increase productivity by allowing us to be more readily available...In reality I just want to be able to gossip in private with my co workers....

My Colombian/Miami girl accent and attitude spill out when I'm really pissed off! BEWARE!


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Who's Rocking the vote???


It's election day and almost EVERYONE (well those that CAN vote) our out exercising their right.. My Facebook feed has been blowing up with status updates from everyone "ROCKING" the vote. Too bad I can't share their same passion.

I've always been intrigued by those people that are SUPER passionate about politics. Those people that say "every vote counts" or "your vote will make the difference". But in reality it doesn't! Our president isn't picked based on the popular vote it's based on the electoral votes...

So if I'm a democratic that lives in a republican state, how is my vote counting? When I lived in Miami at always came down to the wire, but in Kansas- Really?

 I'm the first to admit is sound very ignorant and I often get comments like "if you don't vote, then don't complain" well who's complaining? Certainly not me! 

 I just don't know enough about either candidate or any of the issues to make an educated informed decision. I know what I would like to see from my Presidential Candidate but wanting and getting are two TOTALLY different things. 

So I guess everyone is thinking "oh my god, she didn't vote"! Well yes I voted this year, but my vote wasn't based on any of the "issues at hand" it was solely based on which candidate seemed more personable to me. So yes I am one of those Americans that based their vote on looks alone! At least I voted people, at least I voted!

Mr. Obama got my vote- mainly because I saw this photo a few weeks ago and thought it was sweet...
Yes! I based my vote on a PICTURE!
 
It'll be interesting to see who wins this years election and how he will "PROMISE" to change our country...

Happy Voting people!

Friday, November 2, 2012

Friday Confessional



The Juice is Worth the Squeeze 


So I've decided to jump on this "Friday Confessional" bandwagon... So here it goes...

  • I do about 40% work and 60% personal things while "on the clock"
  • Sometimes I contemplate giving my girls Benadryl so they can fall asleep at a decent hour....[relax i don't ACTUALLY do it]
  • I often think about going to the girl that I think stole my iPhone chargers desk and stealing something of hers [stay tuned-this still might happen]
  •  I turned in more miles than I was entitled to on my mileage report- oops!
  •  I  [sometimes] act surprised when my husband tells me something I already know so he feels "important"
  •  I love to push my limits at work doing things I'm not supposed to [eating at my desk, using my cellphone and surfing the net- Please refer to confessional #1 above]
  •  I've lived in Kansas City for 11 months now and I STILL HATE IT!!!
  •  It really makes me cringe when I see people that color coordinate their outfits from TOP to BOTTOM.. Matching is one thing, but matching shoes, belt, earrings, shirt, headband etc...We get it you KNOW how to match!
  •  I'm addicted to Lock Up, 48 Hours, Bio's of Serial Killers and anything that comes on the C&I channel- my husband thinks it's disturbing....

First week of confessions wasn't too bad... Kind of excited for what next week will bring...





 

Whoa Nelly!!!

So the last entry I had was in June!!! Geeezuuuuss!! I was just shy of 29 weeks preggo and ready to burst.. Since then the girls came out and are already two months old... It felt like the clock stopped ticking when I was waiting for them and now that they are here I wish I could stop time and have them this tiny forever [minus the sleepless nights].

All the mini things I had to look forward to happened.. My birthday came and went (woohoo for 29 years-which nobody really cares about), Alex came and left, my mom arrived and then the girls decided to make their appearance.


Here is the last part of my pregnancy in pictures...


 
Week 29
 
Week 30
Week 31

Week 32

Week 33

Week 34

Week 35

Week 36

Week 36 and 1 Day


Kataleya & Daniella Casalins born August 24, 2012

  
One Month
Two Months


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Let's pick up the pace little ladies!

27 weeks and 6 days-just a few days short of 28 weeks... [YAY!!!]

 I think 28 weeks marks the beginning of the final stretch, the third trimester (woot woot).
But I've also heard it's the longest and most dreadful trimester, apparently counting down in anticipation of their arrival will be longer than actually making it this far.
Just a few quick relevant stats:
Weight Gain 20 lbs
Girls weight 2.5lbs (each)
Carpal Tunnel- IN FULL EFFECT
Projected Tempature in KS: 85-100 degrees
        **TEMPERATURES: READING FROM THE UPPER 90S TO LOWER 100S CAN BE EXPECTED        FROM WEDNESDAY INTO THE WEEKEND.THESE HOT TEMPERATURES WHEN COUPLED WITH THE HUMID CONDITIONS WILL RESULT IN HEAT INDICES OF 100 TO 110 DEGREES** 
Courtesy of www.theWeatherChannel.com
    (next baby IF there is a next baby will definitely be a Spring baby)
Stretch Marks-1 (it's tiny but it's growing off my appedix scar and driving me CRAZY!)
Belly Button still hasn't popped out
Linea Negra- I don't have it!
and this is how MASSIVE I look!
I can't imagine what 10 more weeks will look like!

I think my widwife has noticed my desperation because she gives me hugs at every appointment (every 2 weeks now) and makes weak attemps at trying to comfort me, as does my mom and sisters. Little do they know NONE OF IT WORKS!!!!
I don't really know how women actually say they "ENJOY" being pregnant!!!?? Are these women on crack???
Don't get me wrong it all hasn't been terrible. I've enjoyed random things here and there. Hearing their heartbeats for the first time took my breath away, seeing their little profiles on the ultrasound brought tears to my eyes, and feeling their little love kicks for the first time, well there are no words that can describe how this makes a mom to be feel. Maybe if we could just skip the first trimester (with all the throwing up) go straight into the second (where all the fun stuff starts), and then just skip to having the baby in your arms (who wants to spend hours PUSHING) pregnancy wouldn't be so bad- I know it's wishful thinking... 
[thank you Eve for eating that damn apple]
I'm hopeful that now that I'll be visiting my widwife every two weeks, my birthday is coming up, Alex might be visiting, and my mom is coming I have little mini things to look forward to and before you know it it's "D-DATE!"
In all fairness there are days (and nights) when I kind of "forget" I'm pregnant but those times have been FEW AND FAR BETWEEN!
So let's pick up the pace girls get this show on the road we all can't wait to see what & who you girls will look like!!!!

Friday, May 25, 2012

I love you M-I-A-M-I [but i'm going home]

I've been waiting for this trip home for MONTHS! Literally since the day I arrived in the good ol' Midwest I've been planning my return HOME [my hubby hates when I call Miami HOME-but my HOME will ALWAYS be where my parents are regardless of what he says].

I couldn't wait the anticipation of this trip grew and grew and finally it was time to FLY HOME (yay) so we jumped on a plane, flew and flew for what seemed hours until we finally arrived in Fort Lauderdale (YUCK). No offense to my Ft. Lauderdale friends but those of us that know any better know that Ft. Lauderdale is NOT MIAMI, it's Ft. Lauderdale. But anyways, still I wasn't home... I had to spend 1 night with the in-laws and one half day (and boy did that seem like a lifetime) before I could FINALLY BE HOME...

I never really knew how much I loved being "home" with my family... Seeing my mom & dad for the first time in months took my breath away.. I can't even put into words the overwhelming joy that I felt- then my sisters and nieces and nephews (although I was still missing my brother and his family).  My whole support system all in one place, what else could I have asked for???

The foundation of my Home!
 My mini vacation home was well needed-seeing my whole family  & friends (for my baby shower) was just what the doctor ordered! It gave me an opportunity to recharge my batteries and get ready for what was coming....It also reminded me of how truly blessed, lucky and LOVED I am and how loved my daughters will also be... [even from a distance]
baby kisses!

Never a dull moment with this bunch!



and then it was time to go back..... But back where?? Home??  I mean they say "Home is where the heart is" and it feels like my heart will always be in Miami...

and then I realized.... my NEW HOME is where MY FAMILY is...My husband, my daughters that's going to be my NEW HOME... and the sooner I get used to that idea the easier it will be on myself... 

MY HOME is where my parents are, but pretty soon I'll be someone's parent and I will be their HOME...

You see a HOME isn't the structure of a house... It's where you're upbringing is, your roots, your morals and values are and that is where your heart truly lies...

So we're back in KC and my heart is here [for now]... 

It's where we've bought our first home, where our daughters will be born and where we'll probably give them just a good a foundation as the one we've had... and eventually the inevitable will happen- It will be their HOME.

the foundation of "their home"


Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Whoa Whoa SLOW DOWN 2012!!

Phew [inhaling and exhaling].... I've had quite a ride in the last 6 months... It almost seems like I've lived outside of my own body.... 2011 was taking a turn for the worst around mid year- my marriage was enduring some pretty intense growing pains and sometimes someone needs to make an executive decision and say "hey we need a minute to catch up and re think this situation".. But let's leave the past in the past and fast forward to 2012!

My hubby and I regrouped our thoughts and decided we'd kick 2011 to the curb and start off the the New Year in a New State of Mind! ( I wish it were in a much more exciting city) but Kansas City it was!

We called in the New Years Eve with TWO of my most favorite people in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD, they always manage to keep me SANE. If you could believe that from this picture!

Coming back to KC and leaving my my family behind sucked the big cojones (for my non spanish speaking friends cojones = testicles)... But it was time to get back to my grind! January 3rd I kicked on my roller skates [not literally] and headed to a new job.
Some of my new co-workers!
 I felt like the new kid on the block and being judged on different social standards was not easy.  I psyched myself out and told myself "I'm from Miami, I GOT THIS". But then it seemed like all these new people I met talked about was baby this and baby that and although the thought of a baby was sweet and tender [i mean really who wouldn't want a crying, pooping little booger!] I was in a whole new city, starting a new job and recovering from a very large marital hiccup and without any of my FAMILY!. A baby was as far off from my plans as Pluto is from the sum [and pluto is pretty FAR! Pluto is an average of 5,913,520,000 km (39.5AU) from the Sun]. 

So of course I blamed my once again being late on all the stress I had been under, the move, missing my family, starting a new job and trying to work on my marriage. So I really didn't give it much thought, I mean I was never a 28 day kinda girl. It seems like my period always kept me on my toes.. But then talking one day chatting with my cousin [see picture above] I realized "holy shit" I'm like "SUUUUUPPPER LATE" but I was just hoping it was yet another fluke in my cycle and so I decided to wait for Aunt Flo to make a grand entrance... and I waited... and waited... and waited....I had menstrual cramps, my boobies were hurting so it was really only a matter of days before she'd decide to make an appearance, I even thought maybe it's the cold weather is this stupid state that clogging up my pipes (lol-yeah I know that's kind of stupid. But a girl could only hope).

Finally I told Danny and this was the conversation between us

Me: I feel so sick, I think I'm getting my period!

Danny: You're not getting your period you're pregnant!

Me: I can't be pregnant! I'm ovulating! I have cramps and my boobs hurt! (take that man who's never menstruated)

Danny: Early signs of pregnancy include- cramping and breast pain

Me: Shut up, no they don't!
Danny: Google it!

Of course- I'll never admit it but I proceeded to Google it and he was right! Who the heck would have known! Well regardless it didn't matter because I was NOT PREGNANT! Two days later I decided I'd just set my mind at ease and just buy a test and get it over with... 
January 17th I marched on over to Walgreens and bought a EPT (which by the way is like $20!) which I really didn't want to buy because I'd just be wasting my money! But what do you know.. this time it wasn't a waste! Of course it took a total of 4 test to confirm!
Shock is an understatement for what I felt at that moment.. I sat and cried ALONE, (because Danny was on business in Miami)... and I cried for a while! I don't even know why I was crying I mean I should have been overjoyed with emotion, but I felt like I was knocked up out of wedlock or something... I finally told the husband and he was overjoyed, ecstatic and very excited. I must admit it caught me a little off guard, but it gave me some slight relief!

Ok so let's fast forward! and I'll try and be fast!

5 WEEKS!
7 WEEKS!



10 WEEKS
SURPRISE SURPRISE IT'S TWINS-8 WEEKS





10 WEEKS
14 WEEKS

15 WEEKS
One of our Baby Girls 16 WEEKS



16 WEEKS
So yeah 2012- Please slow down just a little bit! I'm still trying to catch my breath!