little of this & a little of that...: April 2012

Phew [inhaling and exhaling].... I've had quite a ride in the last 6 months... It almost seems like I've lived outside of my own body.... 2011 was taking a turn for the worst around mid year- my marriage was enduring some pretty intense growing pains and sometimes someone needs to make an executive decision and say "hey we need a minute to catch up and re think this situation".. But let's leave the past in the past and fast forward to 2012!

My hubby and I regrouped our thoughts and decided we'd kick 2011 to the curb and start off the the New Year in a New State of Mind! ( I wish it were in a much more exciting city) but Kansas City it was!

We called in the New Years Eve with TWO of my most favorite people in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD, they always manage to keep me SANE. If you could believe that from this picture!

Coming back to KC and leaving my my family behind sucked the big cojones (for my non spanish speaking friends cojones = testicles)... But it was time to get back to my grind! January 3rd I kicked on my roller skates [not literally] and headed to a new job.

Some of my new co-workers!

I felt like the new kid on the block and being judged on different social standards was not easy. I psyched myself out and told myself "I'm from Miami, I GOT THIS". But then it seemed like all these new people I met talked about was baby this and baby that and although the thought of a baby was sweet and tender [i mean really who wouldn't want a crying, pooping little booger!] I was in a whole new city, starting a new job and recovering from a very large marital hiccup and without any of my FAMILY!. A baby was as far off from my plans as Pluto is from the sum [and pluto is pretty FAR! Pluto is an average of 5,913,520,000 km (39.5AU) from the Sun].

So of course I blamed my once again being late on all the stress I had been under, the move, missing my family, starting a new job and trying to work on my marriage. So I really didn't give it much thought, I mean I was never a 28 day kinda girl. It seems like my period always kept me on my toes.. But then talking one day chatting with my cousin [see picture above] I realized "holy shit" I'm like "SUUUUUPPPER LATE" but I was just hoping it was yet another fluke in my cycle and so I decided to wait for Aunt Flo to make a grand entrance... and I waited... and waited... and waited....I had menstrual cramps, my boobies were hurting so it was really only a matter of days before she'd decide to make an appearance, I even thought maybe it's the cold weather is this stupid state that clogging up my pipes (lol-yeah I know that's kind of stupid. But a girl could only hope).

Finally I told Danny and this was the conversation between us

Me: I feel so sick, I think I'm getting my period!

Danny: You're not getting your period you're pregnant!

Me: I can't be pregnant! I'm ovulating! I have cramps and my boobs hurt! (take that man who's never menstruated)

Danny: Early signs of pregnancy include- cramping and breast pain

Me: Shut up, no they don't!

Danny: Google it!

Of course- I'll never admit it but I proceeded to Google it and he was right! Who the heck would have known! Well regardless it didn't matter because I was NOT PREGNANT! Two days later I decided I'd just set my mind at ease and just buy a test and get it over with...

January 17th I marched on over to Walgreens and bought a EPT (which by the way is like $20!) which I really didn't want to buy because I'd just be wasting my money! But what do you know.. this time it wasn't a waste! Of course it took a total of 4 test to confirm!

Shock is an understatement for what I felt at that moment.. I sat and cried ALONE, (because Danny was on business in Miami)... and I cried for a while! I don't even know why I was crying I mean I should have been overjoyed with emotion, but I felt like I was knocked up out of wedlock or something... I finally told the husband and he was overjoyed, ecstatic and very excited. I must admit it caught me a little off guard, but it gave me some slight relief!

Ok so let's fast forward! and I'll try and be fast!