and the world keep turning...

Not that I think that anyone reads my blog anyways...Three months ago my grandmother passed away ( i think I blogged about it)..

Mamita was survived by my grandfather (papito), thought they had "separated" (which really means they had stopped sharing a bed) many many years ago they were still each others companion. 

Sadly, 2 days ago my grandfather also passed away.. Once again we were able to ship my father to Colombia and in time for him to spend some time with my grandfather. Saturday, March 5th at 12:30 PM- my grandfather passed to join his life long companion in a much better place. The news hit us all very hard, especially my brother who is currently in Afghanistan. Our hearts were broken for many reasons but mainly they were broken for our father and as I sit here and blog about it i get goosebumps and my eyes get kind of watery to think of what my father might be feeling. 

I'm not sure if it's ok to be happy at a time like this. But there are a few thing for which I'm happy and thankful for.

1. My father was able to immediately fly and see his father 
2. My grandfather didn't have a long and painful illness. He suffered from a heart attack that quickly damaged his heart and it was almost instant.
3. My father has been in good spirits

I think sometimes that my papito's frail heart could not take the absence of my mamita- and he didn't feel he had a reason to keep fighting and at 92 years of age what else is there to fight for?

I pray that my family in Colombia along with my father are able to overcome this pain. We were all kind of expecting him to follow her, but I guess we didn't expect it to be so soon.

We miss you papito and we hope that you are in gods grace!

Rest in Peace

and they call it PMS

I'm sure it's obvious by the title of this post that I'm PMSing! YES!! 

I'm irritible, emotional, dysfunctional, bloated, cranky, happy, and generally bitter today.. But why the hell does it have to be like this? Am I the only one that gets this way, and most importantly does this so called "PMS" get better as we get older?


But what is PMS? Well According to Google.com/health PMS is defined as:
 "Premenstrual syndrome (PMS) refers to a wide range of physical or emotional symptoms that typically occur about 5 to 11 days before a woman starts her monthly menstrual cycle. The symptoms usually stop when menstruation begins, or shortly thereafter."

So basically PMS can be ANYTHING!! Most importantly why are we the only ones that endure this crap?

I've noticed that as I've gotten older it's getting slightly worse.. The comfort I get is that I know for sure it goes away but I pity those that are around me when I feel like this, it's enough to drive anyone CRAZY!

So if you have crossed my path and suffered the wrath of this evil disorder thing please excuse me, the NORMAL me will be back in a few days..

:)

random rantings!

I really need to get more into my blog! But it seems like all my thoughts and emotions fall into the endless pit that is my brain.. I have tons of things I want to say but not sure if I should put them out there... (when in doubt just keep it to yourself). 

It's Friday and my morning at work has been quite hectic! Upset doctors, upset patients, and upset co-workers..It seems everyone is so angry..It's Friday people! I wonder if I at times sound so angry at the world? I think I know the answer but denial is a nice place to live in sometimes.

Maybe it's the post Christmas blues??

First week back at work following the Holidays kinda does suck!

2011!!

Finally we can get over all that Christmas/New Year fuss!! I love the holidays but they are so exhausting and slightly nostalgic. It was my first New Years Eve that I spent away from my family, and BOY was it hard! 

For the last 27 years I've spent every single NYE surrounded by the warm embrace of my family, hugging my mom & sisters, dialing to call my dad (he usually stays home sleeping, but not this year), listening to the Colombian National anthem (why? Idk it's a Lema tradition) and counting down as the ball drops to begin kissing everyone and their mother at 12AM. However, there was something SIGNIFICANTLY different about this year.. and that is (drum roll please) I'M MARRIED!

I'm not complaining about being married, it was awesome to be with my husband and have him be my first kiss of the New Year, but I missed seeing my mom,dad, sisters, aunts, uncles, cousin, (you get the picture), I missed the Colombian National Anthem, I missed kissing everyone. I guess more than anything I just missed being with them.

My hubby's fam was very hospitable and the party was fun (minus the mutt bucket). 

Well now that I'm done with that! I'll moving onto 2011! I have a feeling it's going to be a great year! I haven't made any resolutions (i usually never follow through anyways) but I'm looking forward to great things.. First stop EUROPE! For the next three months we're on SAVE mode, we'll be crossing the pond in April and I want to make sure we have all bases covered. I'm so excited I could scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010: You were great to me, you were a year of many changes! 

2011: Hope you'll treat me just as good if not better than 2010!

To all my friends & family- May this year bring you tons of love, health & prosperity!